when is the limit?

i guess nobody is reading dis blog anymore.. but who cares..? i dun give a damn. coz i created dis blog to be an outlet for myself.
i dunno wad i did wrong. everything good or helpful i do just vanishes into thin air. and every shit i do. get magnified 10 thousand times. and while all dis mutha fucking thrash is going on. its just vice versa for the someone else! someone comes home tired. he/she can ignore the whole fucking world and treat them like they owe them money. i come home tired, when i go sleep, im branded lazy and good for nothing. when he/she goes sleep, its coz he/she studied super hard. maybe i should just youtube harder. maybe thats called studying. now shit dis fucked up life.